The rock is thrown
A window shatters
My heart is broken
And nothing matters
The edge is close
I cannot stop
I grab on
But all is lost





That's all I got for now

<3 AMANDA

If I died today would anyone care
Or would they go on with their life as if I wasn't even there
If I ceased to exist
Would people live on in bliss
Tell me would it matter if I died
I wish I could've lived this lie
That tomorrow's gonna be a better day right?
Wrong...because my everyday is always night
So please try and help me figure this out
I need to know what my life is about.

AMANDA

I'm surrounded by a stillness
But the silence I must break
For it is killing me slowly
How much can I take
I wish you were here
A decision is what I must make
Because my heart is slowly sinking
Into a deep dark lake
Full of lies and crimes
And all my stupid mistakes
But I fear not the consequences
Of the decision I have made
And I have nothing to lose
Only something to gain.

AMANDA
BY ME.....GOOD, BAD???    TTYL

My smile goes a mile
But a mile to nowhere
Cuz when I smile
You're never there
So since it's not my style
My soul I will not bear
Because you're a liar
And you never cared

ummmm...I don't know what's going on...I mean seriously is it me that's changing or the people around me cuz right now everyone seems different and well I don't know....angry at the world....I know I am but I try not to show it most of the time but what can you do...it's kinda hard to go around all day everyday with a smiling facade....believe me it's pretty damn hard...
AMANDA

I don't understand the things that you said to me
Was it supposed to be mean?
Was it supposed to hurt me?
Did I take it the wrong way?
Or did I hear you just right?
Cuz I feel like I'm falling
And I'm losing this fight.

I GIVE UP!!!!!!!